Depression - over dose ...

First things first , this thing is going to come right from my innermost feelings ...

Shun me , ignore me, do what-so-ever , get hurt , hate it...

Off late i have been acting weird , trying to live on my own having the stupid and nonsensical idea in my mind to have no one around me as that's the way i want to live ... All is going haywire , i have never really understand that , i have really lost it...

Ugh ... for many it seem seem that i am in my most selfish gear as possible , maybe self centered mood as possible ... whatever it might seem to be , i have no explanations to it like i have mentioned hate it ...

Hell ! why do i have to sit and watch people make my own unexpected decisions in life , that make no sense whatsoever , why do i even tend to listen to them ?
Why do i have to be truthful , kind , courteous , helpful to all ? .... why cannot i just be selfish , sarcastic , mean , shallow , mean , cruel like all of them ?

P.S- i knew it i should have never taken those damn moral science classes in school ...

Anti-Blogger ...

Not updated my blog in a while , reasons or things that i might be doing that has made me into a anti-blogger...

• Having a lot of fun in my super dooper life ... which in-fact unusually is going really smoothly without any obstacles as such..



• Sticking in front of the T.V and being as lazy as ever courtesy- Indian Premier League. (Delhi Daredevils + IPL = Champs)



• On a vacation , to some exotic land which has no connection to the Internet or humans ...



• Watching countless episodes of Friends , (Addiction has no cure)



• In search for financial stability , i dont really remember when was the last time i had more than 150 bucks in my wallet...



• Researching and studying countless commercial design - Offices. Innovation and creativity is no longer present in Mahe Manipal specifically in the Interior Design Dept. , it has been nicely and very conveniently transformed into something known as Jugaad... P.S -( http://www.cben.net/ )



• Finding my inner soul.



• Finding my inner soul on Facebook . Possible !



• Commenting on pictures on Facebook .. that also includes Status messages...



• Living in complete dejection when the above three have got boring .



• Completely pissed off with a lot of ******* in college , and thus not in the right state of mind to write.



• Spending time in rehabilitation .. You know



• Youtube has taken over Blogspot ...



• I spend my night's driving all over Dubai , sometimes I like to be a cab driver for my friends ...though they do not pay me...



• If nothing at all , i end up at Sneha's house every night ... after all what are friends for late night booze and 2 day old pizza .. :)



• Plain Simple Lazy !

One or two points above are true , but what is the point you are not going to believe me ... The picture below is a hint of my current life scenario ...