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First things first , this thing is going to come right from my innermost feelings ...
Shun me , ignore me, do what-so-ever , get hurt , hate it...
Off late i have been acting weird , trying to live on my own having the stupid and nonsensical idea in my mind to have no one around me as that's the way i want to live ... All is going haywire , i have never really understand that , i have really lost it...
Ugh ... for many it seem seem that i am in my most selfish gear as possible , maybe self centered mood as possible ... whatever it might seem to be , i have no explanations to it like i have mentioned hate it ...
Hell ! why do i have to sit and watch people make my own unexpected decisions in life , that make no sense whatsoever , why do i even tend to listen to them ?
Why do i have to be truthful , kind , courteous , helpful to all ? .... why cannot i just be selfish , sarcastic , mean , shallow , mean , cruel like all of them ?
P.S- i knew it i should have never taken those damn moral science classes in school ...
Monday, May 25, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Anti-Blogger ...
Not updated my blog in a while , reasons or things that i might be doing that has made me into a anti-blogger...
- Having a lot of fun in my super dooper life ... which in-fact unusually is going really smoothly without any obstacles as such..
- Sticking in front of the T.V and being as lazy as ever courtesy- Indian Premier League. (Delhi Daredevils + IPL = Champs)
- On a vacation , to some exotic land which has no connection to the Internet or humans ...
- Watching countless episodes of Friends , (Addiction has no cure)
- In search for financial stability , i dont really remember when was the last time i had more than 150 bucks in my wallet...
- Researching and studying countless commercial design - Offices. Innovation and creativity is no longer present in Mahe Manipal specifically in the Interior Design Dept. , it has been nicely and very conveniently transformed into something known as Jugaad... P.S -( http://www.cben.net/ )
- Finding my inner soul.
- Finding my inner soul on Facebook . Possible !
- Commenting on pictures on Facebook .. that also includes Status messages...
- Living in complete dejection when the above three have got boring .
- Completely pissed off with a lot of ******* in college , and thus not in the right state of mind to write.
- Spending time in rehabilitation .. You know
- Youtube has taken over Blogspot ...
- I spend my night's driving all over Dubai , sometimes I like to be a cab driver for my friends ...though they do not pay me...
- If nothing at all , i end up at Sneha's house every night ... after all what are friends for late night booze and 2 day old pizza .. :)
- Plain Simple Lazy !
One or two points above are true , but what is the point you are not going to believe me ... The picture below is a hint of my current life scenario ... 
Monday, March 16, 2009
My take on cities and the girls ...
As indicated in my previous posts, Boredom has captured my life. Earlier it was boredom coz of absolutely no work and now perhaps there is too much of work. In spite of my best efforts to get over this , i have failed miserably. It is this boredom that has forced me to dream/visualize places that i would like to go and basically chill out ...
1. Paris: The wine, The architecture ... the culture , The louvre , the charm and the artistic beauty of the city. Many people have told me that this city has got a certain flavour to it be it from musicians, architects or painters which is intesified byDan Brown's Da vinci code.
French Girls:They are pretty good looking infact most of them are hot...
2. Ladakh: I always as a kid wanted to go there , maybe coz i like winters a lot. The Dal lake becomes a platform to ice skate in the cold weather of December. The atmosphere there is simply amazing. The hills, the lakes , the weather it does remind me somewhat of the 3 years i had spent in a hostel in Dehradun.
Kashmiri Girls: Exceptions are always there i feel , but all in all this place is not that bad...
3.Kolkota: Not that i like Bongs, i find the dudes from Kolkota "Phattu" who just claim that they are this and they are that.. Blah Blah ! .. in reality nothing. The chicks are not less, Blondness runs in their blood, but the city in all has a lot to offer,the food,the sweets,the architecture ,the trams, the sheer richness and opulence.
Kolkata Girls: Who said Blonds were not Hot ? ..
4. Vegas: This place is where i plan to retire, I plan to be buried in Vegas itself. Just someday , someday .. i should have enough money to go there and play poker .... and yes hopefully not regret it later ... :)
Vegas Girls: Ahem ! .. Need i say more ??
5. Morocco: There’s a certain royalty about that place, a cultural heritage and that enigma factor, something that most of the Islamic cities have. Plus, I like the way its pronounced..
Morocco: Nah, all have this naqab over them ... forget it
These are the places I’ve heard about, read about, wondered of but am sure there’d be a zillion others that though do not have the discovery or enigma factor I look for in a place, they’d be a wonder just for the beauty, the peace, the ones am still to learn of and add to the list.
1. Paris: The wine, The architecture ... the culture , The louvre , the charm and the artistic beauty of the city. Many people have told me that this city has got a certain flavour to it be it from musicians, architects or painters which is intesified byDan Brown's Da vinci code.
French Girls:They are pretty good looking infact most of them are hot...
2. Ladakh: I always as a kid wanted to go there , maybe coz i like winters a lot. The Dal lake becomes a platform to ice skate in the cold weather of December. The atmosphere there is simply amazing. The hills, the lakes , the weather it does remind me somewhat of the 3 years i had spent in a hostel in Dehradun.
Kashmiri Girls: Exceptions are always there i feel , but all in all this place is not that bad...
3.Kolkota: Not that i like Bongs, i find the dudes from Kolkota "Phattu" who just claim that they are this and they are that.. Blah Blah ! .. in reality nothing. The chicks are not less, Blondness runs in their blood, but the city in all has a lot to offer,the food,the sweets,the architecture ,the trams, the sheer richness and opulence.
Kolkata Girls: Who said Blonds were not Hot ? ..
4. Vegas: This place is where i plan to retire, I plan to be buried in Vegas itself. Just someday , someday .. i should have enough money to go there and play poker .... and yes hopefully not regret it later ... :)
Vegas Girls: Ahem ! .. Need i say more ??
5. Morocco: There’s a certain royalty about that place, a cultural heritage and that enigma factor, something that most of the Islamic cities have. Plus, I like the way its pronounced..
Morocco: Nah, all have this naqab over them ... forget it
These are the places I’ve heard about, read about, wondered of but am sure there’d be a zillion others that though do not have the discovery or enigma factor I look for in a place, they’d be a wonder just for the beauty, the peace, the ones am still to learn of and add to the list.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
The Month Long Drama
I have a "write a post" stick on note stuck to my laptop (which btw is the only source of entertainment these days). And still i have managed to ignore it for almost a month, the reason I didnt post for a full month besides my laziness, is a month full of drama. Yeah a total DRAMA.
Here are a few elements of the Drama....
The "circle of friends"
Its complicated , trust me it really is. The main attribute to this maybe my blog, but anyways screw that. Gone are the days when you had selfless friends, perhaps now you dont.At present you can barely find anyone who can actually fall into that category. Someone said to be long time back blogs are a method of expressing yourself, no matter what it is. Yes i do write a blog and i write whatever i feel like,You can't stop me, Can you ? It is my method of expressing myself. If you or your better half have a problem with it, - Go fuck yourself.
Have any resemblence of something known as "Balls" ? Come talk to me instead of "crying" over for every possible thing.
The Money
Money has always been a hassle in my life, to make it worse the world is going through an entire recession period, Yes times are tough and unfortunatly noone can really help it. I really dont know how am i going to deal with this bankruptcy of mine.I am basically "broke". 2 months more and then i have to search for my internship. Ever wondered what this word means. It means FREE work.. Period
Noone gets paid for internships or do they ? ...
Note:- If anyone knows Interior Design firms that are giving internships and are also "paying" in Dubai/New Delhi ... Do inform me
Work Place Issues
This is not really radical, but work/college/Mahe Manipal is really creating a havoc in my life, yes after 3 semesters i have realised that internal marks really are important, its not really a joke anymore. The changes that have come to the surface regarding my professional work is
1. No more late submittions
2.Write notes in class, (they are not meant to be made into paper balls after class is over and thrown at random people)
3.Work your ass off this semester to increase your GPA
4.Do the crappy assignments the day it is given no matter if the midnight oil has to be burnt or not
5.Dont leave anything for the weekend.
6.Under no circumstances DO NOT bunk classes.
Note:- No i am still the same dude, i am not transforming into a Nerd, to give some positive attribute to it - I still play Foosball.. :D
Facebook
Facebook has become less intresting, It has been ages since i had really updated anything there or never the less played poker (which used to be my favourite pastime), infact for a lame reason and perhaps just for the heck of it. I decided to play Texas Holdem last night, just so that i dont forget how to play poker.
Death
Death i believe is something that is more harrowing to the family of the departed than to anyone else. A close friend of mine from college had lost his father this month , It was really very sad and i offer my condolences to him. But i am also happy for a fact that he is coming to college tomorrow after 20 days. I did meet him last night with Aamir and we shared a smoke and spoke for long. It was nice to see him smiling after a long time ... :)
Sigh , I end my non-post here. Besides this there are a lot more things that have happened this month, but absolutly nothing that can be termed as exciting has happened. Boring can be well justified.
This is where i end, to the "cry baby" and the gujju girl i know:-
Regarding my blog --- Ill keep you pissed Oh, posted ...:P
Peace
Here are a few elements of the Drama....
The "circle of friends"
Its complicated , trust me it really is. The main attribute to this maybe my blog, but anyways screw that. Gone are the days when you had selfless friends, perhaps now you dont.At present you can barely find anyone who can actually fall into that category. Someone said to be long time back blogs are a method of expressing yourself, no matter what it is. Yes i do write a blog and i write whatever i feel like,You can't stop me, Can you ? It is my method of expressing myself. If you or your better half have a problem with it, - Go fuck yourself.
Have any resemblence of something known as "Balls" ? Come talk to me instead of "crying" over for every possible thing.
The Money
Money has always been a hassle in my life, to make it worse the world is going through an entire recession period, Yes times are tough and unfortunatly noone can really help it. I really dont know how am i going to deal with this bankruptcy of mine.I am basically "broke". 2 months more and then i have to search for my internship. Ever wondered what this word means. It means FREE work.. Period
Noone gets paid for internships or do they ? ...
Note:- If anyone knows Interior Design firms that are giving internships and are also "paying" in Dubai/New Delhi ... Do inform me
Work Place Issues
This is not really radical, but work/college/Mahe Manipal is really creating a havoc in my life, yes after 3 semesters i have realised that internal marks really are important, its not really a joke anymore. The changes that have come to the surface regarding my professional work is
1. No more late submittions
2.Write notes in class, (they are not meant to be made into paper balls after class is over and thrown at random people)
3.Work your ass off this semester to increase your GPA
4.Do the crappy assignments the day it is given no matter if the midnight oil has to be burnt or not
5.Dont leave anything for the weekend.
6.Under no circumstances DO NOT bunk classes.
Note:- No i am still the same dude, i am not transforming into a Nerd, to give some positive attribute to it - I still play Foosball.. :D
Facebook has become less intresting, It has been ages since i had really updated anything there or never the less played poker (which used to be my favourite pastime), infact for a lame reason and perhaps just for the heck of it. I decided to play Texas Holdem last night, just so that i dont forget how to play poker.
Death
Death i believe is something that is more harrowing to the family of the departed than to anyone else. A close friend of mine from college had lost his father this month , It was really very sad and i offer my condolences to him. But i am also happy for a fact that he is coming to college tomorrow after 20 days. I did meet him last night with Aamir and we shared a smoke and spoke for long. It was nice to see him smiling after a long time ... :)
Sigh , I end my non-post here. Besides this there are a lot more things that have happened this month, but absolutly nothing that can be termed as exciting has happened. Boring can be well justified.
This is where i end, to the "cry baby" and the gujju girl i know:-
Regarding my blog --- Ill keep you pissed Oh, posted ...:P
Peace
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
As i sit here..
I write this keeping in view my mental status
As i sit here, I see smoke rising over my head as if giving me an indication to something. My thoughts go to endless days of thinking mindlessly. Sometimes you just want to waste time thinking about nothing , you just wish to be alone and have your own space. You need your bubble of solitude.
As i sit here, i can see the clock ticking and think as to how fast life is passing. A moment back i was in school chasing a football and now i am staring at a design portfolio. Life lived now will be history the next second. A moment lost , a moment that cannot be revived back , a moment that is finished.
As i sit here, i think of all the dreams that i saw, all those dreams that forced me to believe that it is wiser to be awake than to dream. Dreams that saw aspirations are buried, and ambitions drowning.
As i sit here, i think that till now i have had some highs and some lows. Some were good days and some were bad days. It is a flashback of memory. A black and white photo reel that is running reminding me of each and everything. The mistakes that costed me and the risks that gifted me.
As i sit here, i hope this darkness ends, giving way to a new hope. It ends the struggle. It gives me the required strength to collide with it. A new ray .... A new beginning.
As i sit here, i hope that i am wiser today than what i was yesterday. I learn to be more forgiving. I learn to appreciate life. I can hope that i am stronger and live life today , now and this moment
As i sit here, I see smoke rising over my head as if giving me an indication to something. My thoughts go to endless days of thinking mindlessly. Sometimes you just want to waste time thinking about nothing , you just wish to be alone and have your own space. You need your bubble of solitude.
As i sit here, i can see the clock ticking and think as to how fast life is passing. A moment back i was in school chasing a football and now i am staring at a design portfolio. Life lived now will be history the next second. A moment lost , a moment that cannot be revived back , a moment that is finished.
As i sit here, i think of all the dreams that i saw, all those dreams that forced me to believe that it is wiser to be awake than to dream. Dreams that saw aspirations are buried, and ambitions drowning.
As i sit here, i think that till now i have had some highs and some lows. Some were good days and some were bad days. It is a flashback of memory. A black and white photo reel that is running reminding me of each and everything. The mistakes that costed me and the risks that gifted me.
As i sit here, i hope this darkness ends, giving way to a new hope. It ends the struggle. It gives me the required strength to collide with it. A new ray .... A new beginning.
As i sit here, i hope that i am wiser today than what i was yesterday. I learn to be more forgiving. I learn to appreciate life. I can hope that i am stronger and live life today , now and this moment
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