Way of life .

No matter how many times I may have lost my path,There is but one destination that calls me, my feet may have stepped unevenly, up or down but the destination has always moved towards me every moment.

I am obliged to my friends on many a call,But I am indebted to them for most of this....

Let the skies pour down in hail, let the earth explode with fire,

The unstoppable cycle of time,

Let us begin a warfare...

Depression - over dose ...

First things first , this thing is going to come right from my innermost feelings ...

Shun me , ignore me, do what-so-ever , get hurt , hate it...

Off late i have been acting weird , trying to live on my own having the stupid and nonsensical idea in my mind to have no one around me as that's the way i want to live ... All is going haywire , i have never really understand that , i have really lost it...

Ugh ... for many it seem seem that i am in my most selfish gear as possible , maybe self centered mood as possible ... whatever it might seem to be , i have no explanations to it like i have mentioned hate it ...

Hell ! why do i have to sit and watch people make my own unexpected decisions in life , that make no sense whatsoever , why do i even tend to listen to them ?
Why do i have to be truthful , kind , courteous , helpful to all ? .... why cannot i just be selfish , sarcastic , mean , shallow , mean , cruel like all of them ?

P.S- i knew it i should have never taken those damn moral science classes in school ...

The Month Long Drama

I have a "write a post" stick on note stuck to my laptop (which btw is the only source of entertainment these days). And still i have managed to ignore it for almost a month, the reason I didnt post for a full month besides my laziness, is a month full of drama. Yeah a total DRAMA.
Here are a few elements of the Drama....

The "circle of friends"
Its complicated , trust me it really is. The main attribute to this maybe my blog, but anyways screw that. Gone are the days when you had selfless friends, perhaps now you dont.At present you can barely find anyone who can actually fall into that category. Someone said to be long time back blogs are a method of expressing yourself, no matter what it is. Yes i do write a blog and i write whatever i feel like,You can't stop me, Can you ? It is my method of expressing myself. If you or your better half have a problem with it, - Go fuck yourself.
Have any resemblence of something known as "Balls" ? Come talk to me instead of "crying" over for every possible thing.

The Money
Money has always been a hassle in my life, to make it worse the world is going through an entire recession period, Yes times are tough and unfortunatly noone can really help it. I really dont know how am i going to deal with this bankruptcy of mine.I am basically "broke". 2 months more and then i have to search for my internship. Ever wondered what this word means. It means FREE work.. Period
Noone gets paid for internships or do they ? ...

Note:- If anyone knows Interior Design firms that are giving internships and are also "paying" in Dubai/New Delhi ... Do inform me

Work Place Issues
This is not really radical, but work/college/Mahe Manipal is really creating a havoc in my life, yes after 3 semesters i have realised that internal marks really are important, its not really a joke anymore. The changes that have come to the surface regarding my professional work is

1. No more late submittions
2.Write notes in class, (they are not meant to be made into paper balls after class is over and thrown at random people)
3.Work your ass off this semester to increase your GPA
4.Do the crappy assignments the day it is given no matter if the midnight oil has to be burnt or not
5.Dont leave anything for the weekend.
6.Under no circumstances DO NOT bunk classes.

Note:- No i am still the same dude, i am not transforming into a Nerd, to give some positive attribute to it - I still play Foosball.. :D

Facebook
Facebook has become less intresting, It has been ages since i had really updated anything there or never the less played poker (which used to be my favourite pastime), infact for a lame reason and perhaps just for the heck of it. I decided to play Texas Holdem last night, just so that i dont forget how to play poker.


Death
Death i believe is something that is more harrowing to the family of the departed than to anyone else. A close friend of mine from college had lost his father this month , It was really very sad and i offer my condolences to him. But i am also happy for a fact that he is coming to college tomorrow after 20 days. I did meet him last night with Aamir and we shared a smoke and spoke for long. It was nice to see him smiling after a long time ... :)



Sigh , I end my non-post here. Besides this there are a lot more things that have happened this month, but absolutly nothing that can be termed as exciting has happened. Boring can be well justified.

This is where i end, to the "cry baby" and the gujju girl i know:-

Regarding my blog --- Ill keep you pissed Oh, posted ...:P
Peace